It's A Busy Day

So tomorrow I'm having a busy day. A while ago we had a bad flea infestation that came out of nowhere. We were in major cleanup mode and threw out a lot of the cat's things that were covered with fleas. It was astonishing how many fleas and eggs were on my cats! They're indoor cats but there are so many ways for fleas to get in your house that doesn't result in having animals outside. Most likely the fleas attached themselves to my dad's pants while mowing the lawn or cleaning the yard and he brought them in the house and there you go. So I washed the cats and blow dried making sure to comb them. Put the Advantage on them and sprayed the Adams upholstery and carpet spray, which in my opinion is the best spray to use for these situations. Fleas are gone but so is some of the cat's furniture, including one of my cat's bed. So my dad is going to help me in making a new bed. Why? Because those beds out there now are freaking expensive! So I went to the fabric store and bought cute paw print fabric and some wooden dowels. We'll be making a bed and also a step ladder for my cat because he has a hard time jumping up to my bed so I want to make it easier for him. They're older now and I want to make sure that they have an easier and more comfortable life. With the loss of both of our dogs in a matter of 5 months, I want to keep my cats healthy and to live as long as they can. I am a cat person and I love my cats as if they were my children. Granted I have no children but they are my furchilds. It was a huge loss when we had to put our dogs down. In March and August of 2012 were the months that our dogs were put to sleep. Every single day I think of them, I've had dreams of them too. I'd wake up crying because the loss is so deep. Its hard to live in this house without a dog. We've been in this house for ten years and during that entire time, we've always had a dog. Now they're gone and my dad says no more dogs, no more animals period. Once the cats are gone he's done. But as far as cats go, no way. I'll grieve for my cats when they go but I will definitely get another cat. I take care of my cats. I scoop their litter, buy the food and feed them. He can't fight me with cats but with the dogs, it was different. He cleaned up outside and bought their food. But its my mom that has the say because, as the cats are my companions, the dogs were hers. Almost as though she had two sons and they died. That's how it is and I understand her not wanting to get another dog. She doesn't want to go through that kind of loss again in 10 or 15 more years. As much as I want another dog, I get it. I'm an only child and my mom wanted to have more kids which is why the loss hit her, I think, much harder than myself or my dad. Though the loss of them put a hole on my heart, my mom just went into a depression and was crying all the time. We were not working at the time so I told her, you need to get a job or do more volunteer work at the church. It is too depressing in this house without them and she needed to get out. So she went back to work temporarily where she had before and its been much easier for her. But for me, not that much. I walk around the house alone and my insecurity is heightened. I put the alarm on when they leave for work and I don't go outside unless its necessary. I wait until my dad gets home and then I'll go outside. It feels empty and less secure because my dogs were our protectors and with them gone, OMG its so hard. I'm even tearing up now thinking about them. They were such good dogs and there will always be a part of me missing because they're gone. I can't wait until I see them again in heaven because I know they'll be there waiting to play ball with them or just petting them. It'll be the same with my cats too. I don't care if others think there will be no animals in heaven, that's a bunch of crap to me. I'm a Christian woman and I believe that I will see all those I've loved, including pets, when I die.  That's just what I need to cling to in order for me to keep living, knowing I'll join them in eternity. It's The Little Things in life that make it easier to continue to live and look forward to the hereafter.